"I love you," He whispers

I smile as I wake up in the morning, a feeling of overwhelming pain aching through my bones and muscles. And yet, I still smile. It's not easy, no, and not everyday do I wake up smiling. Actually, I rarely smile until after my second cup of coffee. Then I can feel happy and awake.

I sigh a sigh of heaviness. A burden that no 16 year old should have to carry upon their shoulders. And I don't often give my burden to Jesus. Why? Because I'm human. I'm stubborn. I want to do things on my own, to be independent. But Jesus is always ready to take our burdens, to carry us when we hurt, to pick us back up when we stumble. He wants to help us. And I give Him my burdens. More often than not, I stumble because of the load on my back. And if we know that it is easier to just give Him our burdens, then why don't we? Why carry them ourselves?

I cry tears that are built up from several months of pain. Tears that Jesus catches and keeps in a jar. He wipes away each of our tears, keeps them for later on, and then He holds us tight, rocks us back and forth; comforts us.

I cringe against the messiness of my life. The chaos that I am in. Maybe I put too much on my plate, take too big of a bite that I can't swallow. And again, Jesus is always screaming at me, telling me to give Him what's bothering my soul. And I take a deep breath, swallow hard, and give Him the rest of the "food" on the plate.

It's been a long journey. And in the end, I wouldn't trade this journey for anything. God shows us so much through our hard times. He teaches us character. He teaches us faith. He teaches us love.

And every time I feel depressed and down, He always whispers, "I love you."
God loves you.
He'll never leave your side.

Jesus, the Son of God, went through Hell on Earth just so you could be with Him in Heaven if you Believe. He hung on the Cross. "I love you," He whispered.

He did this for me. For you. And all the pain, sickness, death and hurt we go through on this earth, Jesus gave us a way to be with Him. He gave us a way to be comforted.

"I love you."

I ran across the song To the Dreamers by For King and Country the other day, and fell in love with the chorus:
"To the dreamers/wide eyed believers/hanging onto hope by a thread. To the soulful/heart open hopeful/keep on charging ahead."

Don't stop. Keep on charging ahead. Follow your dreams. Trust Jesus. Never give up hope. Never give up soul. And darling, never give up on yourself. Jesus will always be there for you.

"I love you," He whispers.
Never let go of that.

I yawn, exhausted from life. And I hang onto to that hope. Onto that Promise that Jesus is always here for us. I hang onto that love of my Heavenly Father. And I wait. Ever so patiently, I wait in my Saviors arms.

~Jeremiah 31:3,
Sarah